AT THE EDGE OF THE PRECIPICE

AT THE EDGE OF THE PRECIPICE

In March 2011 when my mother was diagnosed with cancer I clung on to my camera as if it were an anchor, a lifebelt, a witness. The world as I had known it lurched before me. And it was the materiality and the permanence of photography that provided me with a therapeutic distance, and created the illusion of action. Such is the impotence of those who watch and the loneliness of those who suffer...

Each image is testimony to the everyday aspects of the disease, but they are also the products of the mechanisms of my conscious, which was assaulted by the reality of a silent, stealthy illness that settled itself into our routine. "My mother has cancer" was the phrase that would suddenly strike me when I had managed to block it out temporarily at the cinema, on walks, while reading. Sometimes I even forgot, but those slips of memory didn’t last long, sometimes minutes, sometimes hours. The time that I could stay away from taking photographs.

In the end, what was meant to be a commemoration of the routine, if there is one, of the disease, became the most intimate journal I have ever made . This is my visual journal of how cancer and my mother’s sickness and the emotional ups and downs experienced by all of us close to my mother affected my innermost feelings. It is of how frailty, pain, futility and emptiness assail us when our very essence is at risk. It is fear. Photography at the edge of the precipice.

Lourdes Segade

Lourdes Segade

Age: 38 // Occupation: Photographer

Lourdes Segade is a photographer based in Barcelona, Spain. Her work is broadly published worldwide in newspapers and magazines and online, and shown in festivals and exhibitions. She is a member of Picturetank.

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